What’s for me or what’s not for me? That is the question.

I have been presented with so many wonderful opportunities, and I have a difficult time discerning which chances are good and which ones are just too good to be true. Sometimes I listen when my heart tells me that something is perfectly orchestrated for me to walk into and other times I’m weary if it’ll turn out how I imagine it. I have learned from past experiences that if I have to make plans, scheme, or overanalyze how something is going to happen, it’s usually not for me. If I just walk into it and things flow naturally, I don’t have to question it. It’s God’s will. I’ve had major examples of both, and now I trust my instinct to know the difference. Here are my best examples of each.

I really wanted to transfer to an out-of-state college. I call each time I applied to a group of schools “rounds,” and I did 3 rounds of applications. My freshman year, I applied to some very prestigious universities on the east coast, REJECTED. The next year, I applied to a few schools that were in the Washington, D.C. area. I had a couple of friends near there and a friend in the process of transferring. I thought I wanted to study broadcast in the nations capital. I must have been way off 'cause I don’t even remember receiving decision letters from all of those schools. Come to think of it… I may not have even submitted a complete application to any of those schools in this round.  Because I found a few more reasonable schools and I polished my applications. I was even involved in a program that helped transfer students transition into these universities. I got accepted to all schools I applied. NO FINANCIAL ASSISTANCE. Ughh. I was convinced that was where I was supposed to be, it was my city of choice… but not in my desired major. My heart hurt for a long time after that round. It was clear as 4K Ultra HD technology that I was not supposed to transfer at all. (Clearly, I’m stubborn.)

Since I stayed home and did not borrow any money to attend college out of state, I knew I had to study abroad. I was going to get my studying away from home experience someway! When I made up my mind to study abroad, everything fell into place. I narrowed down the country and city and I found the perfect class that was designed just for me to take, Travel Writing. Love it. I had access to funds, deadlines weren’t an issue, and it was used as the final credit for my BA. I like to call my study abroad experience my graduation gift to myself. Everything worked out seamlessly. I wouldn’t say effortlessly but it went so smooth that I wasn’t used to not having resistance. The resistance was God’s way to telling me that it wasn’t for me. Everything was so hard before I found what was designed perfectly for me. I’ll say that the lessons I learned and the growth and skills I attained from those rounds of applications allowed things to go much smoother when it came time to study abroad. In a sense, I had already been there and done all the necessary paperwork for that. It was just a matter of putting that energy into the right project. I can recognize all that after the fact. Now I have to learn to see that in whatever situations come now. I’ve got to learn the difference between obstacles and signs.

To The Better Days:

Job 12:12-13                                                                                                 ♥ Britt T

 * Job 12:12-13  12 Is not wisdom found among the aged? Does not long life bring understanding? 13 "To God belong wisdom and power; counsel and understanding are his. *