Desire, Passion, and Summer Jobs

In a moment I was hit with disappointment. I applied for a job a few weeks ago, went through the preliminary screening, did well during the interview, and was even offered a position on the team. Then a couple days later, the manager told me that they were making a few cuts and that they wouldn't be needing me after all. He told me if any positions open up within the program that I would be the first person called (yes, I bought that). So you will understand my shock and tinge of betrayal when I saw a job posting for the same program this morning and no email from anyone in the company.

I find myself confused. At one point I really wanted to work in this position because of the security that seemed to come with a high-paying, summer long program, but since then I've found another summer job. I can't help but to wonder, in my slight uncertainty and nervousness about taking this current position, if the job opening up again is a sign for me to join the crew! I might still shoot them an email to see if they would consider me or I might move forward with the new plans I've made for myself. I honestly feel like there's no guarantee that they will even come through after what happened the first time.

Decisions. The evolving factors that impact decisions are hard to sift through sometimes, and I wasn't counting on any of the factors changing at all, and now I have to rely on what my heart truly desires and where my passion lies this summer. 

I know that if I greatly desire some thing, then sometimes I will have to have the guts to stake something else on obtaining it. So forget the job that forgot me! I'm going to go ahead with the plans I made to be an activities counselor at a Christian summer day camp because I love the thought of working with kids for the summer in a city I've never been. I know it'll be a challenging but rewarding experience, and I don't see anything I would do this summer in Las Vegas being as cool as that.

The Better Days are coming.

♥ Britt T