Ladies and Gentlemen,

I HAVE BEEN REJECTED!!! And it doesn't feel good.

There's not much I can say about it, but I laid it out a little bit. Maybe I should have said it first. Maybe I should have worded it differently to trap him in a corner and have him tell me what I want to hear. Is that any better? He was honest. But then, I still don't think he was because there were things he didn't say, things he didn't explain. And those issues left unsaid are the issues that are driving me nuts... Let me take a breathe. I want to feel like I've been heard. I don't want to be ignored. I don't want you to spare the grime details because you think I'll handle it better. What I will handle a lot better is you. You, in the role that I want you, in the box that I put you in in my mind. You are supposed to be the one I can laugh with. You are supposed to be the one I can be sarcastic with and you get it. You are supposed to be the one who hugs me and I like it when every other person in this world doesn't get to touch me. You are supposed to be the one I feel comfortable enough to tell my secrets. People freely tell me their secrets and I keep them. But it says a lot about a person who holds the secrets of the secrets-keeper. (I feel like I just created a term that should be used in a Harry Potter novel.) But you elected out of all of those duties. You chose to be like every other person in this world. You choose to be the 6.9 billion and CONGRATULATIONS! I will now treat you as such. Although you haven't been getting all of me lately, now you will be getting none of me. Have fun with that because as much as I can love a person and make them feel special and safe, there's the opposite side of that spectrum. The side you've never even seen or knew existed, and there you'll be. I'm getting careless. And do yo know how careless I'm getting. I don't even care about the grammar in this post. And you, my dear, will be getting that exact treatment. I once made you think I needed you, don't be fooled. I wanted you. What you've got, I will find in another, and he will probably have it better. If you thought you were going to let me down easy and still feel like you did me a favor, don't anymore. I no longer need to be your charity case and I will no longer look to you for anything.  It's been fun. Years of confusion and sorrow and indecisiveness and dragging someone else along for it are O V E R. Now you will have to prove to me that you care because all of your actions and behavior prove to me that you can live without me and seem to be wandering through life pretty rough.  I'm happy for you, really I am because all I ever wanted was to see you happy and at peace with your world. Maybe I was the cause of some of the turmoil in your world. Maybe I got your ship a-rockin'-and-a-rollin' but I loved you and I will let you go.



To the better days:              
Jeremiah 29:11-13                                                                                                          ♥ Britt T








   *So let's talk. If you have anything to say about REJECTION or want to feel heard, write a comment, leave a question, with your name or anonymously. I'll address it in my vlog, Brittany's VLOGGGG!*