Desire, Passion, and Summer Jobs

In a moment I was hit with disappointment. I applied for a job a few weeks ago, went through the preliminary screening, did well during the interview, and was even offered a position on the team. Then a couple days later, the manager told me that they were making a few cuts and that they wouldn't be needing me after all. He told me if any positions open up within the program that I would be the first person called (yes, I bought that). So you will understand my shock and tinge of betrayal when I saw a job posting for the same program this morning and no email from anyone in the company.

I find myself confused. At one point I really wanted to work in this position because of the security that seemed to come with a high-paying, summer long program, but since then I've found another summer job. I can't help but to wonder, in my slight uncertainty and nervousness about taking this current position, if the job opening up again is a sign for me to join the crew! I might still shoot them an email to see if they would consider me or I might move forward with the new plans I've made for myself. I honestly feel like there's no guarantee that they will even come through after what happened the first time.

Decisions. The evolving factors that impact decisions are hard to sift through sometimes, and I wasn't counting on any of the factors changing at all, and now I have to rely on what my heart truly desires and where my passion lies this summer. 

I know that if I greatly desire some thing, then sometimes I will have to have the guts to stake something else on obtaining it. So forget the job that forgot me! I'm going to go ahead with the plans I made to be an activities counselor at a Christian summer day camp because I love the thought of working with kids for the summer in a city I've never been. I know it'll be a challenging but rewarding experience, and I don't see anything I would do this summer in Las Vegas being as cool as that.

The Better Days are coming.

♥ Britt T

Dear Anjelica Fernandez,

After distracting myself and keeping busy by putting all my energy into pulling the project together and I just settled on the subject matter, my heart almost couldn't bear it. I have been thinking about you so much this month, it's almost like you're here. I drive by places we frequented as kids, I hear a song we made up our own words to, and I hear exactly how your voice would say something and the exact facial expression. Your laugh. Your smile. It's so real and all these images come back, and that's how I will remember you. You are the beautiful, joyful person who loved so hard and unconditionally. That's who I knew you as. This sadness is not one I can just sleep away, so I look forward to meeting in all the old familiar places. Your spirit will ride with me, it will guide me, and remain. You have impacted my life in ways that I'll never know. I loved you so much in the little time you were here, and everyone who knew you did, too. Rest peacefully, Anjelica. "Everybody loves you!" :)

To The Better Days:

Ecclesiastes 3:1-4                                                                                                 ♥♥♥ Britt T

 *Ecclesiastes 3:1-4  1 There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven: 2 a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot, 3 a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build, 4 a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance *